As I contemplate the dark reality of Holy Saturday, I am reminded of the in-between; remaining stuck somewhere between the tragedy of Friday and triumph of Sunday. The problem is I cannot keep my mind in the in-between. As I live this side of resurrection Sunday, I have to try hard to step back and imagine what it must have felt like for the disciples. How dark. How desperate. How hopeless. But I can’t do it. I cannot imagine that place because I know what they did not–Jesus will rise and overcome the dark desperate hopelessness. I know that Holy Saturday is only the in-between.
But even then my mind cannot stay there. It needs a place to settle; resolution. So my mind drifts back into Thursday. Why? Because Thursday is where it all began. It is the place of divine surrender where I am reminded that in the midst of Holy Saturday’s darkness I need to follow Jesus’ lead and surrender to the divine. Thursday is the day God in the flesh willingly submitted to His fickle and comparatively weak created-ones to offer us freedom. It is the day where God whispered to us:
“I’ll allow you to break me so you can be whole.”
“I’ll allow you to revile me so you can be redeemed.”
“I’ll allow you to reject me so you can be reconciled.”
“I’ll allow you to kill me so you can take on true life.”
“I’ll allow you to hate me so you can know God’s love.”
“I’ll allow you to deny me so you can be accepted by God.”
“I’ll be forsaken by God so you will never ever be.”
Jesus’ divine surrender led to His redemptive suffering. Today I cannot help but wonder, will I allow His divine surrender to move me toward surrender? Will I live a life of self-giving love even if it means I am to share in His sufferings? Will I carry within me the death of Christ as I share the load of another’s burden? Because I know Sunday is coming I know the divine power that awaits. My Holy Saturday prayer is that I will allow this divine power to lead me to surrendering to the divine so my old self with all it’s self-serving desires can be carried away and crucified that I might receive the divine power of resurrection. I pray you will too, because one thing is sure this Holy Saturday.
Sunday is coming.